Its been a while...thats what life does to you..just carries you around without giving you time to think..and then when you pause to catch your breath you realise how much time has passed..how much you have gained, or lost...

But anyway...its been a busy few days...was away on some sort of a course..so couldnt really find time to write...

Its crazy... the idea of this blog was that I could write stuff that I can never bring myself to say to anyone, not even to myself..the idea was that because this is kinda anonymous, I could just write whatever...but I can't...

I am scared of putting into words thoughts that no one else knows...I dont know why I am scared...like I said I don't think anyone ever is going to read this..and that was the whole point...but I don't know...